Okay, so slightly burnt, not to mention that as I wrote the ending a lot of things in the middle became clear which means that not only do I have major additions to make to my second draft, but also that the wyrm is turning and it's getting more complex every time I think about it. *sigh* But I don't have to think about that right now, as the next writerly thing on my plate is finishing my thesis - a strange work of fictional truth that will allow me to go on to grad skul some day - before I start up with this monstrosity again. Oh, new title: Meaningful Wars. I made it up all by myself. So there.
11.30.2002
I is am be done. For now. Yay me... ahem. Yay Me!!!!
Okay, so slightly burnt, not to mention that as I wrote the ending a lot of things in the middle became clear which means that not only do I have major additions to make to my second draft, but also that the wyrm is turning and it's getting more complex every time I think about it. *sigh* But I don't have to think about that right now, as the next writerly thing on my plate is finishing my thesis - a strange work of fictional truth that will allow me to go on to grad skul some day - before I start up with this monstrosity again. Oh, new title: Meaningful Wars. I made it up all by myself. So there.
Okay, so slightly burnt, not to mention that as I wrote the ending a lot of things in the middle became clear which means that not only do I have major additions to make to my second draft, but also that the wyrm is turning and it's getting more complex every time I think about it. *sigh* But I don't have to think about that right now, as the next writerly thing on my plate is finishing my thesis - a strange work of fictional truth that will allow me to go on to grad skul some day - before I start up with this monstrosity again. Oh, new title: Meaningful Wars. I made it up all by myself. So there.
11.24.2002
Still behind on word count, but hey, my marriage is falling apart - I'm not writing the drama, I'm living it. *mumph* I'd rather be writing it. And shall, more, still, continue taking deep breaths and backing up my nano novel. I'm somewhere in the 27,000 word range at the moment, planning on busting 30,000 by the end of the evening. I have some terrorists to chase and some tins of Spam to blow up, dammit! Onward!!!
11.17.2002
Did I mention the part where I'm way behind on my word count due to overly obsessing about drauma? That's domestic + drama + trauma = drauma. Like that word? I made it up yesterday. They lied - November is the cruelest month so far, not April. April's the month I got married... heh. I'm so gonna use this drauma stuff to up my word count... hey, might as well get something besides angst and a migraine out it it, right? Not that I'm bitter...
11.14.2002
Ahh... broke through that damned prophecy sequence - my prophet mummy was pompous, but he got over it and died. Hey - nothing worse than a pompous prophet mummy, right? And I flashed way forward in time to Talila and Gabriel reuniting to work on her life story - ork. It hurts when old lovers get back together and they never really got over each other. Good stuff. I wrote 1000 good words on my lunch break. Yay me. Gonna to to Aroma tonight to write lots and lots more.
11.12.2002
I got some writing done at Sworks yesterday while waiting for my mentee, then more at home, but I've hit an impasse of my own making. Talila, my main character, is currently posted to the CNN Bureau in Cairo and waiting for Gabriel to fly in to see her after a year apart. She takes a taxi out to Giza Plaza to visit the Sphinx. In ancient times, people used to sleep in the shadow of the Sphinx in the hopes that their dreams would reveal the future... I've got a much cheesier device - a withered madman of the desert who spouts riddles at her that give her clues as to her real nature and identity. Problem is, I'm geeking out hard and wanting to take two or three days to write the damned thing in Aramaic. I'm behind on my word count and need to be writing, not fashioning convoluted oracles in dead languages. Ha. So I'm stealing from the Book of Habakkuk instead ;-> Yay, public domain.
11.10.2002
Ahh... back from my Secret Lair of Writing... yes, some writing got done, a lot more outlining got done (finally putting all my screenplay experience to work with structure and suchlike here) and I feel good! Yeah baby! Not nearly up to speed on the word count, but some big pieces are falling into place, so I got lots to write about. Thanks to a comment by The Shadow, I have a new opening sequence. I've decided to write this from the beginning forward, keeping the timeline (for this first draft) relatively linear, instead of zigging and zagging all over the space-time continuum like I had been. I give you the new beginning chunk (yeah, I know it's self-referential with the writing and all, but #1 - write what you know, and #2 - they were both already writers, now they're just sleeping together and in love):
“Egg rolls and scotch, “Gabriel rolled over, slipping one hand over Talila’s breast. “So this is the writer’s life?”
She grinned sleepily, then wiggled a bit closer to him. “For two future Pulitzer Prize winners, I think that about sums it up.” She lifted her head and surveyed the wreckage of their tiny studio apartment. They had graduated yesterday and had celebrated late into the night with friends and family making the rounds at various bars. The party had finally degenerated to the two of them polishing off a bottle of Glenmoranghie while feeding each other the last noodles of Chinese takeout left over from the previous week of final exams. They hadn’t made it to the bed, but had fallen asleep in the middle of the floor, a drunken tangle of limbs reeking of sex, alcohol, and peanut oil.
Gabriel shifted his hand lower, sliding his fingers down her belly, tugging lightly at the navel ring he’d tried to talk her out of, then gently tracing his fingers lower. She sighed, coming fully awake, and tried to roll over.
“Ohhh, I didn’t know graduating would hurt this much.” She clutched at the back of her head, wincing.
Gabriel chuckled and sat up too quickly, then groaned and flopped back down on the carpet. “Yeah, I guess I was being overly optimistic with that whole sitting up thing. Again.”
“Yeah, that’s you. Mr. Optimism all over. Way too fucking cheerful to be human. So where’s the aspirin?”
“I think I took the last of it right before we hit O’Malley’s last night.”
“And of course, you didn’t think to stop off at a drugstore and pick more up before we got to our third bar. Boy Scout… sure.”
“You’re just upset because I drank more than you and I’m not hurting as much.”
“I could fix that, you know. Just because tiny evil little dwarves with sharp hammers are banging away at my forebrain doesn’t mean I can’t share the pain. That’s what relationships are for, right? Sharing?” She flopped back down, landing an elbow square in his stomach.
“Oof! Tali, you are my forever love, but if you don’t get off me I’ll have to dump you in the bathtub and run cold water over you again.”
“What do you mean, ‘again’?”
“You don’t remember that part? Go look at yourself in the mirror. I didn’t do such a good job with getting all your mascara washed off.”
Talila got herself up onto her hands and knees, making a point of using the soft parts of his body, as well as his face, to push herself against on the way up, and crawled across the floor to the bathroom door, where they’d hung a cheap full length mirror.
“Oh gods, I have been possessed by a giant raccoon demon. Weren’t you scared when you woke up and saw this? I’m surprised you didn’t scream like a girl and jump across the room.” Her face was a comedy of streaked mascara, a few blotches of smeared lipstick bright red around her cheeks and nose, and a suspicious smudge of what had to be eyeliner along her jawbone.
“What the hell did you do to me in that shower? How did I get eyeliner on my chin?”
Gabriel grinned at her and blew her a kiss. “I was just trying to help, love. You were in pretty bad shape and I still had plans for you.”
“You gave me shock hydrotherapy just so we could have a celebratory fuck? Did I at least enjoy that part?”
He groaned and rolled his eyes up at her, clutching at his heart with one hand and flopping the other dramatically against his forehead. “I swoon at the lady’s displeasure. Did she enjoy it? Alas, I am not memorable…”
“You have way too much energy for a man with a splitting hangover.” She crawled back toward him, her dark hair swinging around her face, moving like a panther stalking its prey.
“Oh no… you’re going to hurt me now, aren’t you?” He started to skitter crab-wise away from her.
“Damn right I am, and you’re going to like it.” She grabbed one of his ankles, then a knee with the other hand, pulling herself up along his body, lying along the full length of him. He grinned and teased a finger along the eyeliner on her chin, then kissed her. Those Pulitzers would have to wait.
“Egg rolls and scotch, “Gabriel rolled over, slipping one hand over Talila’s breast. “So this is the writer’s life?”
She grinned sleepily, then wiggled a bit closer to him. “For two future Pulitzer Prize winners, I think that about sums it up.” She lifted her head and surveyed the wreckage of their tiny studio apartment. They had graduated yesterday and had celebrated late into the night with friends and family making the rounds at various bars. The party had finally degenerated to the two of them polishing off a bottle of Glenmoranghie while feeding each other the last noodles of Chinese takeout left over from the previous week of final exams. They hadn’t made it to the bed, but had fallen asleep in the middle of the floor, a drunken tangle of limbs reeking of sex, alcohol, and peanut oil.
Gabriel shifted his hand lower, sliding his fingers down her belly, tugging lightly at the navel ring he’d tried to talk her out of, then gently tracing his fingers lower. She sighed, coming fully awake, and tried to roll over.
“Ohhh, I didn’t know graduating would hurt this much.” She clutched at the back of her head, wincing.
Gabriel chuckled and sat up too quickly, then groaned and flopped back down on the carpet. “Yeah, I guess I was being overly optimistic with that whole sitting up thing. Again.”
“Yeah, that’s you. Mr. Optimism all over. Way too fucking cheerful to be human. So where’s the aspirin?”
“I think I took the last of it right before we hit O’Malley’s last night.”
“And of course, you didn’t think to stop off at a drugstore and pick more up before we got to our third bar. Boy Scout… sure.”
“You’re just upset because I drank more than you and I’m not hurting as much.”
“I could fix that, you know. Just because tiny evil little dwarves with sharp hammers are banging away at my forebrain doesn’t mean I can’t share the pain. That’s what relationships are for, right? Sharing?” She flopped back down, landing an elbow square in his stomach.
“Oof! Tali, you are my forever love, but if you don’t get off me I’ll have to dump you in the bathtub and run cold water over you again.”
“What do you mean, ‘again’?”
“You don’t remember that part? Go look at yourself in the mirror. I didn’t do such a good job with getting all your mascara washed off.”
Talila got herself up onto her hands and knees, making a point of using the soft parts of his body, as well as his face, to push herself against on the way up, and crawled across the floor to the bathroom door, where they’d hung a cheap full length mirror.
“Oh gods, I have been possessed by a giant raccoon demon. Weren’t you scared when you woke up and saw this? I’m surprised you didn’t scream like a girl and jump across the room.” Her face was a comedy of streaked mascara, a few blotches of smeared lipstick bright red around her cheeks and nose, and a suspicious smudge of what had to be eyeliner along her jawbone.
“What the hell did you do to me in that shower? How did I get eyeliner on my chin?”
Gabriel grinned at her and blew her a kiss. “I was just trying to help, love. You were in pretty bad shape and I still had plans for you.”
“You gave me shock hydrotherapy just so we could have a celebratory fuck? Did I at least enjoy that part?”
He groaned and rolled his eyes up at her, clutching at his heart with one hand and flopping the other dramatically against his forehead. “I swoon at the lady’s displeasure. Did she enjoy it? Alas, I am not memorable…”
“You have way too much energy for a man with a splitting hangover.” She crawled back toward him, her dark hair swinging around her face, moving like a panther stalking its prey.
“Oh no… you’re going to hurt me now, aren’t you?” He started to skitter crab-wise away from her.
“Damn right I am, and you’re going to like it.” She grabbed one of his ankles, then a knee with the other hand, pulling herself up along his body, lying along the full length of him. He grinned and teased a finger along the eyeliner on her chin, then kissed her. Those Pulitzers would have to wait.
11.08.2002
11.07.2002
W00t! I hit 10,000 words - 20%! Okay, so actually I wrote during my lunch hour and hit 10,039 words. And now I've got a love story going and it's getting all passionate and tragical and soon there will be some heavy sex and poignant broken hearts. Oh, and alien life forms and war. What more do you want?
Ahh... better. Went to Jennifer's Coffee Connection in Studio City last night and wrote for a few hours - am finally getting caught up to where I need to be. And with the whole plot thing, well, lemme tell ya, it's getting complicated. But that's all to the good - I'm writing various scenes here and there and at some point I'll have to come up with something to string them along, like pearls on a silken cord. Yeah, just like that. Or not.
11.06.2002
Well, apparently my brain decided that since it had burned all those extra calories and found a plot, it was done for the day. I only wrote 600 words yesterday, so I'm now about 1200 behind ;-< Note to self - watching Buffy and Smallville doesn't work when writing a novel. I can write other crap and partake of the boob tube, but I can't write this crap while watching TV. So tonight I'm gonna head off to a coffee shop after work and get some serious numbers up.
11.05.2002
In deference to Devra whom I adore, I am posting the intial chunk (clot, clog, wad, clump) of my nano novel here, just as it appears on the nanowrimo website. I will probably have to work out a pdf format thingy or a seperate page or something if anybody really cares to work that hard at finding things to make fun of me for. Oh wait, here's one now - my working title (I suck at titles so bear with me) is "Again With The Knives And The Screaming... Oh, And I Found This Really Cool Leopard-Print Babydoll Thing In My Drawer or Speaking Truth to Power" - like it? I thought it up all by my self. Can you tell? I really, really suck at titles... heh.
Tap... tap. Is this thing on? She cleared her throat then started to speak, her voice cracking just a little as she read the prepared introduction from the card in her hand.
“Not a complex life, not a simple one either. Just me and what I wanted, and what I got. I'm here to tell you about that, and about all the places in between that I've finally, in my seventy-eighth year, started to explore. I've gone on walkabout through my head and around my life for the past five months, you see, and this is what I've learned.”
“I started doing this my first few weeks in the camps, back when I was a girl. I’d travel from barracks to barracks, interviewing people for their stories, their bits of wisdom, maybe score a few bites of some sweet that my mother wouldn’t let me eat because we all knew that the camp dentist was a butcher. We were lucky enough to get moved from Manzanar after the first six months, before the cholera epidemic there, so I had a fresh crop of new subjects to quiz and harass and spy on that kept my interest from flagging.
“Looking back, I see it as a way to try to figure out just what I was doing there, what my entire family was doing there… the same way that a group of women will worriedly quiz a rape victim in their midst as to just what she was doing when she was attacked and brutalized, secretly hoping to figure out the magic combination of events to avoid at all costs. I, too, wanted to know why my family was being singled out from all the other families in our neighborhood, why my family was being brutalized, abandoned, betrayed by our country. I wanted to know by what right, what mandate from heaven, our government could revoke all our rights as citizens and throw us into century-old camps to rot the next five years away.
“None of our fellow camp inmates – I see you wince at that work, Honored Speaker – well, inmate is the correct and accurate word. We were held prisoner against our will. We were inmates of a lunatic asylum outside our walls. Society’s fear had curdled to madness and we were the scapegoats driven out of town, curses laden on our heads in the twisted hope that our punishment for your crimes would free you all, cleanse your tribe of every thing that was bad and dark and bloody and painful and the consequence of the political actions of that time. Your father was a junior official at one of the camps, wasn’t he? Does he ever speak of his time there, of the papers he shuffled or the execution orders he signed? Ah, another wince, as if I said something in poor taste… I’m not up here at this podium to be polite or dance around your revisionist sensibilities. I am here to speak truth to power, my truth in the face of the power you represent.”
Tap... tap. Is this thing on? She cleared her throat then started to speak, her voice cracking just a little as she read the prepared introduction from the card in her hand.
“Not a complex life, not a simple one either. Just me and what I wanted, and what I got. I'm here to tell you about that, and about all the places in between that I've finally, in my seventy-eighth year, started to explore. I've gone on walkabout through my head and around my life for the past five months, you see, and this is what I've learned.”
“I started doing this my first few weeks in the camps, back when I was a girl. I’d travel from barracks to barracks, interviewing people for their stories, their bits of wisdom, maybe score a few bites of some sweet that my mother wouldn’t let me eat because we all knew that the camp dentist was a butcher. We were lucky enough to get moved from Manzanar after the first six months, before the cholera epidemic there, so I had a fresh crop of new subjects to quiz and harass and spy on that kept my interest from flagging.
“Looking back, I see it as a way to try to figure out just what I was doing there, what my entire family was doing there… the same way that a group of women will worriedly quiz a rape victim in their midst as to just what she was doing when she was attacked and brutalized, secretly hoping to figure out the magic combination of events to avoid at all costs. I, too, wanted to know why my family was being singled out from all the other families in our neighborhood, why my family was being brutalized, abandoned, betrayed by our country. I wanted to know by what right, what mandate from heaven, our government could revoke all our rights as citizens and throw us into century-old camps to rot the next five years away.
“None of our fellow camp inmates – I see you wince at that work, Honored Speaker – well, inmate is the correct and accurate word. We were held prisoner against our will. We were inmates of a lunatic asylum outside our walls. Society’s fear had curdled to madness and we were the scapegoats driven out of town, curses laden on our heads in the twisted hope that our punishment for your crimes would free you all, cleanse your tribe of every thing that was bad and dark and bloody and painful and the consequence of the political actions of that time. Your father was a junior official at one of the camps, wasn’t he? Does he ever speak of his time there, of the papers he shuffled or the execution orders he signed? Ah, another wince, as if I said something in poor taste… I’m not up here at this podium to be polite or dance around your revisionist sensibilities. I am here to speak truth to power, my truth in the face of the power you represent.”
Okay, so I'm futzing with my color scheme in lieu of chortling about the fact that I've finally got a plot! W00t! And I'm only 52 words behind where I should be as of this fine a.m. Even better. Instead of attempting to fully multitask at work like Cybele, I shall simply spend the day taking notes on the fine, fine plot I'm developing. Hey, if I don't act like it's amazing, I'll weep...
11.04.2002
The real secret to this novel-in-a-month thing? "You have to keep all your marbles in the same duck." (Dilbert's Real Life Quotes)
Spent a great afternoon at the Bourgeois Pig yesterday scribbling away with three other nanos and my buddy Doselle, and was actually able to get some really difficult scenes written that would have had me curled up in a corner sobbing had I tried them at home all by my lonesome. I was also amazed that I was able to actually write in a cafe - I haven't been able to do that before, but maybe I just need that grandiose looming deadline impetus. Yeah, I just need to be spanked...
Spent a great afternoon at the Bourgeois Pig yesterday scribbling away with three other nanos and my buddy Doselle, and was actually able to get some really difficult scenes written that would have had me curled up in a corner sobbing had I tried them at home all by my lonesome. I was also amazed that I was able to actually write in a cafe - I haven't been able to do that before, but maybe I just need that grandiose looming deadline impetus. Yeah, I just need to be spanked...
11.01.2002
Marshmallow Peeps: Harbingers of Doom for the Human Race?
Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the center cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.
Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand;
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again: but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?
Yeah, it's like that today. Day One of NaNoWriMo so far. Just. Like. That.
Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the center cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.
Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand;
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again: but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?
Yeah, it's like that today. Day One of NaNoWriMo so far. Just. Like. That.
10.31.2002
Happily attended the LA Kick-Off at Barbara's at the Brewery last night and met a slew of folks who are as nutso facto as I am - everyone was nice and funny and kudos to Cybele, our beloved Moderator, who not only got Bedhead to score us a great place to eat and drink and bemoan our cursed fates, but went balls-out Martha on us and carved an amazing NaNoWriMo pumpkin. With bats and everything! I not only got to meet the other InkGirl (and an alleged InkBoyz), I also learned all kinds of things about the botanical properties of gin from Cybele, who was a great hostess and gracious and a good sport as our conversation degenerated into rampant mockery (yay Fred!) of anything more than one of us could focus on at the same time. Oh, and in a studio next door there was a pumpkin slaughterhouse - much beauteous carving had been done and there was fire in gourds, which is always compelling for me, so I cruised over and played mystery woman while I checked that out too. Ahh, a good night. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside, much like those pumpkins.
10.24.2002
So I'm happily warbling "Minnie the Moocher" in the shower this morning, all awake and fluffy because I dreamt all night that I was writing and anxiously checking my word count every couple of pages and by the time I woke up I'd gotten 15,000 words knocked out and I felt accomplished, even if it was only a dream, and I trip merrily out to the living room to go to work and see the spousal unit sitting on the couch, clutching his skull in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. Said spousal unit cracks one eyelid at me and says, "I know you're happy because you're writing, but could you please save the singing in the shower for the weekends? The sound traveled right through the walls and into my brain." Ha, like it's my fault he stayed up way too late studying arcane algorithms and thus was not sufficiently prepared for my joyous state this fine a.m. Yeah, I know all those words are still in my head instead of scribbled in pixellated ink, but I'm clinging to the illusion... besides, he'd rather live with The Laughing Girl than with who I was a year ago at my old job in Hell's 17th Circle ;->
*cross-posted to InkBlog - read it and weep for me*
*cross-posted to InkBlog - read it and weep for me*
10.23.2002
10.22.2002
Thanks to Neil Gaiman for linking to Nick Lowe's essay on The Well-Tempered Plot Device. All my concerns about writing a well-constructed novel for NaNoWriMo are hereby laid to rest.
*cross-posted to InkBlog - read it and weep for me*
*cross-posted to InkBlog - read it and weep for me*
10.18.2002
I'm in such deep shit - I signed up for the Sims Online beta and just got my CD in the mail. Luckily, my laptop isn't up to spec for the game, and my hubby's PC is, so I'll have to get past him to get any real playing time in. Not that I don't have my wily ways...
I've been using this space to collect ideas for a little while now, and now I'm repurposing it to serve as my NaNoWriMo blog. I will probably end up throwing all the stuff below plus the baby and the bathwater and the kitchen sink into those 50,000 words - what the hell. Here I go. Kickoff for LA's NaNoWriMo group is on October 30th at Barbara's at the Brewery. I will be there ready to go. Oy. Yeah, there's trepidatious stuff rattling around in my head, but I know that I can crank out 1,000 coherent, publishable words a day in about 1-1.5 hours, every day, for 365 days straight. If I can do that, I can double or triple the time to 3-4 hours a day for 30 days straight. *deep breath* I can do this. And I'm gonna.
9.17.2002
5.23.2002
5.13.2002
4.30.2002
Tour of Terror - a paparrazzi who smells blood - called a "Skeeter" - after bombing victims, etc... satiated on pain - "Life is good."
lives off of others' pain, etc., emotional vampire who feeds on the darker stuff - a professional war photojournalist - piggybacks on trauma/crime scenes. "My people are ancient, but solitary. We suffered greatly ourselves after WWII, due to an unprecedented population explosion thanks to the Nazi Holocaust. the creatures "bud" off when sufficiently sated on pain - occasionally perversions are born among them - to our people - who we humans call saints - follow this thread.
twist up the conflict between an hip, grizzled and typical skeeter and a perversion that it births. balance between surfeit and budding is a sexual tension that releases/organic fucked up internal conflict between sexual pleasure (as the impetus to bud) and the loathing of a competitor, much less fear of birthing a perversion - flowing and moving through space and time, shedding children like a tree sheds its leaves. when first born, children are bound to their local territory - when older can wander out of home area and go "rogue" - "an old name for us is skeeter but we don't suck physical blood - we can, however, be draining to our food."
lives off of others' pain, etc., emotional vampire who feeds on the darker stuff - a professional war photojournalist - piggybacks on trauma/crime scenes. "My people are ancient, but solitary. We suffered greatly ourselves after WWII, due to an unprecedented population explosion thanks to the Nazi Holocaust. the creatures "bud" off when sufficiently sated on pain - occasionally perversions are born among them - to our people - who we humans call saints - follow this thread.
twist up the conflict between an hip, grizzled and typical skeeter and a perversion that it births. balance between surfeit and budding is a sexual tension that releases/organic fucked up internal conflict between sexual pleasure (as the impetus to bud) and the loathing of a competitor, much less fear of birthing a perversion - flowing and moving through space and time, shedding children like a tree sheds its leaves. when first born, children are bound to their local territory - when older can wander out of home area and go "rogue" - "an old name for us is skeeter but we don't suck physical blood - we can, however, be draining to our food."
4.26.2002
to add to my wild and wacky screenplay idea about the sex toy party and the guy trying to get out of being awol - the maid is psychic by virtue of coming from the same village in Mexico as the blond poofy guy on the telenovelas, and gives all the rich ladies readings about how to keep their husbands from turning them in for new models.
4.22.2002
I seem to have a prediliction for stepping into stories by means of a particular character... hmm. how's this for a great role - a woman who wants to be an actress goes for a shady audition that turns into a snuff film, or at least she thinks it does, and then they free her. or how would a day in the life of the Little Bomber Girl go twenty years from now when she's all grown up and her kids are learning about how to make pipe-bombs in kindergarten to keep the resistance supplied?
4.11.2002
nephilim - the offspring between human and angels. we call them that because some of the others have managed to reproduce with their human companions, but the offspring never get all the anatomy that drives humans to call the aliens angels - some go crazy and get surgical implants of feather buds hoping to grow wings when the carpenter-surgeons are done with them...
4.10.2002
This is a great story idea - how would you like to be that child? Hmm... an event in the girl's life from her POV, maybe the first rejection by a boy who she cares about and all the conflicting stuff around that, including the lesbian parent angle...
"Just when you thought the human race couldn't get any more bizarre, a lesbian couple is pleased to admit they have created the world's first designer handicapped baby. A deaf lesbian couple in their mid-thirties wanted to experience the joys of motherhood, so they consulted their local sperm bank. Only they were looking for a very specific donor trait: the same inherited hearing disability they both had. They wanted their child to be deaf. Sperm bank officials told the couple, Sharon Duchesneau and Candace McCullough, that congenital hearing loss immediately disqualifies donors. The couple, who belong to an extremist group that believes deafness is not a handicap but a "cultural identity", turned to a deaf friend to donate. Sharon became pregnant and the couple gave birth to a deaf daughter, now five years old. They were so pleased that they had another child, a boy, but he is completely deaf in only one ear. Children's rights groups are appalled, and the conservative Family Research Council said their decision to "intentionally give a child a disability" was 'incredibly selfish'."
"Just when you thought the human race couldn't get any more bizarre, a lesbian couple is pleased to admit they have created the world's first designer handicapped baby. A deaf lesbian couple in their mid-thirties wanted to experience the joys of motherhood, so they consulted their local sperm bank. Only they were looking for a very specific donor trait: the same inherited hearing disability they both had. They wanted their child to be deaf. Sperm bank officials told the couple, Sharon Duchesneau and Candace McCullough, that congenital hearing loss immediately disqualifies donors. The couple, who belong to an extremist group that believes deafness is not a handicap but a "cultural identity", turned to a deaf friend to donate. Sharon became pregnant and the couple gave birth to a deaf daughter, now five years old. They were so pleased that they had another child, a boy, but he is completely deaf in only one ear. Children's rights groups are appalled, and the conservative Family Research Council said their decision to "intentionally give a child a disability" was 'incredibly selfish'."
3.20.2002
just had a stormbrain... went to 20things.org and a few other places and signed up to be part of those projects - yay, fun. got the idea about a story where a psychokiller type signs up for various objects, etc., and then stalks and kills all the people who signed up for the same object, then steals their identities and keeps the fiction of their existance going on the web. in the meanwhile, that same person is living as a famous conceptual artist - off the creations of his victims. ack. this could be utter shite... dunno. feeling blorkiy... no, that's not a word. so?
